I think that somehow it’s always been this way. The more I care about and put effort into interacting with someone anyone really…the easier it is for them to just leave me. I try too hard I guess or maybe its just that I’m always just stupid enough to believe things are more than one sided., that I’m the only one who is supposed to give a fuck.
I know there is nothing great about me but still I alway seem to manage to think someone else sees something in me and wants to get to know me. Maybe its because they know me that makes it so easy to leave. Like one day they finally learn the secret, that even though I’m a living breathing human being even something as stupid as an inanimate object is better company. Even after months, weeks, hell even fucking years anything else will do.
Maybe I’m the bad person after all for feeling so goddamn entitled, but you’d think that after so much time passes you’d earn more than an abrupt send-off in which the other person just stops giving a fuck and nothing is wrong in the world because of it. My bad I thought after so much time it would be harder nope its still judt me.
Afterall I was never worth anything to begin with.